Dear acne

Dear acne,
it's been a long journey since you and I live together as one.
These past 5 years were tough. sometimes tougher than other times... I tried to kill you so many times until I gave up on you. I thought for awhile "fuck you and fuck who does not like you!"
"if you don't wanna see it don't look at my face".
I thought I could live with you and be happy. I even thought I had a really good self esteem since I could delete you on Photoshop.

But in real life, deep inside me, this was all a big lie I was putting in my head. I was living with these lies for a while and thought I was okay. I was living with all these lies for years, actually. But it came to a point that I wanted to kill you again after trying so many different products, trying to eat healthy, being active with my body, after trying to live with you and thinking I could be okay with that.

Well, I can't anymore and I am ready to let you go. Yesterday night, before I was going to sleep I tried this guided meditation that was specifically for people who suffers with acne and everything changed on my mind. Now, I look at you with love and I accept you with all my heart. So strange, right?
This meditation taught me to be grateful for you... yes! I am now grateful for you even tho you look disgusting.
Because of you I am learning so much more about myself. Because of you I am in this new journey where I'm seeking for my better self even deeper than I was before. I'm ready to change my thinking habits about myself, I'm ready to start new habits and I am so ready to love you before you leave forever.
Thank you, dear acne! ❤️

Self portrait from April 

Another cartoon

"Pareceu-me que pretendias agradar-me embora não me conhecesses

Convenci-me que me havias distinguido entre todas aquelas que estavam comigo

O encantamento que sentias quando estavas a sós comigo"

fotografia: @Joanameneses.photos

Your garden my garden

Before getting someone to water your garden, make sure you have the garden already watered by yourself. Only open up your garden to someone when you look to your flowers and think "Oh, you look immensely beautiful!"

Only after this you'll be ready to have someone taking care of your garden too. And let me tell you, it's the best feeling ever 🥰💐

"My chest is your garden and the seeds you planted in my heart are going to be painfully beautiful flowers." 💐

I wanted to be a sea nymph

Esta sessão foi feita à pressa e isto está a ser escrito à pressa também. Mas eu não gosto de fazer as coisas à pressa.

Não foi de todo a sessão de auto retratos que mais gostei. Mas depois de olhar tanto tempo para estas fotos, de alguma forma, fizeram-me lembrar que nós mulheres somos do ca#@*...
Estas fotos fazem-me pensar na maternidade (não sei bem porquê) e nelas dei à luz esta concha bonita. 

This is a photo series about a girl that had a secret VHS tape 🎥

"A minha vida dava um filme e tu até curtias. Ficavas viciado, vias todos os dias!"

Sonhos

"Eu não tinha esses olhos

Esse desejo de descobrir

Parece que não me encaixo

Às vezes me acho uma anomalia

Para de interromper intensidade

Com medo de se arriscar

Para de se entristecer pela cidade

Com medo de não agradar

Ah, parece que o universo é curto de mais

Você parece nunca se satisfazer

Você existe pra cruzar longas distâncias

A vida foi feita pra você

Você corre, continua e não se cansa

Pois seus sonhos são maiores que você"

⛵✨🌀

Música de Tainá - Sonhos

My boat

I said I would surrender with no fear and I did. I put my arms behind my back, face the light, listen to the sea waves and I just waited for that storm to calm down. I know well this storm and I also know it's nothing more than just the fear shaking fiercely the winds.

It always feels like it's happening inside me and I learned to let it simply flow. It doesn't scare me anymore. I now control my own boat in this storm and I feel secure in all storms.

Senses

  Don't you ever cover your eyes to what your heart is telling you.

25 de Abril - Dia da liberdade 💓

Partilho convosco algumas fotografias da sessão de aniversário da minha mamy (24-04-2020) 

A mãe que, felizmente, sempre me deu a liberdade que preciso.

Ensinou-me muito bem a ser livre! ✨

The light within ✨