terça-feira, julho 17, 2018

Do You Feel Real

"I thought I'd silenced you
But here you are again
Welcoming my anxiety
I've wanted to throw you out
But since you're the gate
I'll remain the prison
I thought I'd hear from you
Or you'd escape from me
Maybe I'm too scared to forget you
I just can't remember how it feels like to function without--
Absorbed in total free fall
It's a waste of time
It's not that serious
And then, when guilt consumes you in your yoga class
And your teacher convinces you
You have to come back more often to solve these issues
I look around and realize I am the problem
Am I put into this world solely to embody it?"

Photo by Joana Meneses

sábado, julho 14, 2018

Don't look back

"Travel far enough you meet yourself."

Photo by Joana Meneses 

quarta-feira, julho 11, 2018

Eventually I'll go far.
I'll move.
I'll not have intentions to come back soon.
I'll just go...
I'll let my soul travel. I'll give my soul the freedom it always asked me.
I'll meet the world and I hope I find you through my journey.
Where are you going? Can you take me with you?

terça-feira, julho 10, 2018

Spitting Emotions

"Y tú, mirándome sin hablar
Y yo, hablándote sin mirar"

I can't predict my fate

"I wonder what beginning, what end waits for me
Will I have accepted the things that I cannot change?
And will I have changed the things I cannot accept?
This time, next time, about time"
Photo by Joana Meneses

Everlasting Love

"Deslizo poemas de saliva

No rascunho da tua pele"

segunda-feira, julho 09, 2018

"Vivo fingiendo un sueño que no se cuenta 
Vivo imaginándote, sólo imaginándote"

Self portrait

sexta-feira, julho 06, 2018

Watch me dance with this memory
Just as real, just as heavenly

Photo by Joana Meneses

She don't know where she's gonna go now
She looked up to where there should have been stars
She said I wanna go to mars
And this, this planet ain't ours

quarta-feira, julho 04, 2018

"I got a conclusion for this illusion: it's all confusion!"

Photo by Joana Meneses

terça-feira, julho 03, 2018

Lucid dreams

Tive um sonho tão real, forte, intenso... tal e qual como me lembro de ti e como me fazes sentir. Reconheci esta sintonia estranha desde os primeiros dias. Agora percebo que não foram os primeiros dias, não foram as primeiras vezes que te olhei, mas sim a continuidade de muitos outros dias que passei contigo, não sei quando nem onde, mas sei que te encontrei outra vez, aqui, nesta vida, nesta dimensão.
Mas por quê que voltamos ao caminho um do outro se não foi para ficarmos juntos? O que será que vivemos antes? 
Sinto que estamos ligados para sempre, por alguma força que talvez nunca iremos perceber. Como se fosse uma compreensão mútua entre o meu íntimo e o teu.
Gosto de te recordar. Vou sempre gostar.

Photo by Joana Meneses

domingo, julho 01, 2018

Stop it, it hurts

Self portrait


Life is weird. It will always be.
- Why?
- Because we don't have a clue what this is all about.
Why are we here? Why do we suffer sometimes? Why does important relationships have an end? Why does the best things sometimes are so hard to get? There's so many "whys"...

I think I'm about to see my dad today, after many years without a connection. And as I'm writing this I'm already in tears. I have no idea what is going to happen. All I know is I have some things inside me that I want to get rid of. It's like bad things are stuck in me and this things don't allow me to be 100% peaceful with myself. They say you can't let your old memories make who you are in the present. And I agree with that. But I also believe we are made of memories. And right now I am being my past and it is slowly killing me. I hope this re encounter helps me, somehow... maybe will not. Maybe I just have to fix myself and learn how to forget the past and leave more in the present. I am so grateful for everything I have today, but I am still not happy with myself like I should be and like how I know I could be. I know basically everything I must do, everything I must stop doing and everything I have to start doing. I want to find that balance. It is possible for every one of us. There's a point we reach that we no longer feel that roller coaster in life between sad and happiness and we just know how to be balanced within our mind. I want to reach that level as soon as I can and I believe it's getting so close to me...

Self portrait

May I come in?

Self portrait 2017

quinta-feira, junho 28, 2018

Self portraiture

It's the morning light, the early breeze, the birds singing their first melodies, the quietness because there's no one in the streets.
It's only you.
You can now create and be who you want to be.
Who you dreamed to be.

6am self portrait

Can't throw your ashes to the sea

"Hard to breathe with your hands around my throat."

Self portrait

Invento-me, recrio-me e sonho.

Self portrait

quarta-feira, junho 27, 2018

You wanted more

"I gotta get my feet back on the ground."

Self portrait

"All I want is to one day come to know myself"

"You mean she would rather imagine herself relating to an absent person than build relationships with those around her?"

Self portrait

terça-feira, junho 26, 2018


Self portrait 2017
When Mars touches Jupiter...
Please, don't go
Please, I'll make you breakfast

Self portrait

Stolen hearts

Eu não quero o presente, quero a realidade

Photo by Joana Meneses

terça-feira, junho 19, 2018


"Dois amantes felizes não têm fim nem morte,

nascem e morrem tanta vez enquanto vivem,
são eternos como é a natureza."

Photo by Joana Meneses

quarta-feira, junho 13, 2018

terça-feira, junho 12, 2018

I've got you under my skin

Self portrait

Não me esqueço da Aurora Boreal e da liberdade que me das.

Photo by Joana Meneses

segunda-feira, junho 11, 2018

Sweet time

"I’ve been meditating
I stopped medicating
I’m taking advice from the moon
Im lost in melody
Harmony, new family
They wrap me up in a cocoon"

Photo by Joana Meneses

"Acho que a vida é um amontoado de caos e coincidências."

Photo by Joana Meneses

sexta-feira, junho 08, 2018

terça-feira, junho 05, 2018

"My memory loves you"

Self portrait

"Conceived within your mind
Born upon your lips."

Self portraits

sexta-feira, junho 01, 2018

Behind the secrets we hide.

Photo by Joana Meneses


"I'll give you my body

Just don't tell nobody
I'll give you my body
Cause being without you is impossible
I'd rather be with you and be vulnerable."

Photo by Joana Meneses

quinta-feira, maio 31, 2018

My head...
It weighs heavy 
Upon these restless shoulders
Am I trying to live my life?
Or live the dream they sold us?
Am I following my own path?
A winner in a one man race
Everyone keeps telling me 
I'm heading in the right direction
But I feel like I've just been standing in the same place
I can feel the rhythm of my heart 
Beat slow and beat fast 
Trying to get my head out of the gutter
And get it out of the past

Photo by Joana Meneses

quarta-feira, maio 30, 2018

"Don't get me wrong

if I split like light refracted

I'm only off to wander

across a moonlit mile"

Self portrait 

terça-feira, maio 29, 2018

I saw you passing on top of that bridge
We used to cross it on top of our feet

Photo by Joana Meneses

segunda-feira, janeiro 08, 2018

Let the wind hit you hard
close your eyes so you can hear it better
let the wind blow your hair
you are now falling, breathe the air

Photo & words: Joana Meneses

domingo, janeiro 07, 2018

Your books and your light kept me warm all night.
Photo & words: Joana Meneses

sexta-feira, janeiro 05, 2018


"Take your two lips and plant them on my cheek now."

domingo, dezembro 24, 2017

quarta-feira, dezembro 20, 2017

Somethin' in the way

"And yes, I'm a mess but I'm blessed
To be stuck with you
Sometimes it gets unhealthy
We can't be by ourselves, we
We'll always need each other, and
Yes, I'm a mess but I'm blessed
To be stuck with you
I just want you to know that
If I could I swear I'll go back
Make everything all better"


O teu coração navega em contramão

"Leva a bandeira
Carrega o pesadelo
Terra firme só não vale
Porto seguro é não ter medo"


"Since inception
You infectious
You proof
I can't trust you we through"

segunda-feira, dezembro 18, 2017


What are you trying to tell me?

domingo, dezembro 17, 2017


I am alone tonight
Only tonight
This was that night
But I might stay here

sábado, dezembro 16, 2017


"In the life of a rose
I've lived and died 100 times
You've watched me open, bloom, wilt, rot
And start over
You watch me again, and again, and again, and again
And each time
My time, measured in light, final breaths, finding, losing
Time, giving so much
And then taking everything away
And I wonder this time, next year
What will it look like?
With my guesses so often, so wrong
I wonder what beginning, what end waits for me
Will I have accepted the things that I cannot change?
And will I have changed the things I cannot accept?
This time, next time, about time"


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